Some years back I had gotten pretty evil with my politics I mean I really wanted Harper to be gone and for the CPC in Alberta to be done in . I was really angry sometimes . Now I had just recently been made aware by my own daughters that I was quite sexist and had conservative qualities myself . So I tried to shed that attitude and around women no problem but get around the fellas and forget it . It took years for that to happen . I heard Justin Trudeau speak in ONT and he said "The Conservatives are not our enemies they are our friends and neighbors " And that's when I became a full liberal supporter He made me feel like shit for being so like them I immediately did an about face and became a better person for it several years later my Daughter came out to me because she felt I had grown up enough I guess lol and had changed for real Into a better Canadian . I took pride in my politics brought good values to everyone especially to myself . Had more civic pride for my community and my neighbors .In 2016 my Nephews and I we're on our way to Southgate terminal in Edmonton riding the L R T and as soon as we left the stadium station an officer stood up and my nephew said "Now watch uncle he won't check fares he'll walk right up to us " sure enough he comes up and ask us all for ID not train fare so I had mine the boys had theirs and we had train fare he tries to insinuate my nephew is drinking when we didn't drink and go to the movies FFS it was Our Outing . So I ask him "Why did you ask for ID first?" and he walked away from me . Then the lady across the way tells me it's 150 dollar ticket if you don't have ID that's why they ask the native boys because they most likely don't have ID SOOoo padding their stats by issuing tickets to Natives . First time in my life I identify systematic racism at the hands of a white man in authority. He was a City of Edmonton Transit cop who was a peace officer. Cop with no gun but he does have a ticket book .
Second time it happens I had just recently moved into a pretty run down house and the previous tenants we're pretty bad at doing the outdoor work so many tickets had been issued to the landlord not the tenant they weren't paying them so he got them . They we're also First Nation . It took me 10 days to clean up the yard cut back all greenery i moved 4 loads and an old trailer to expose the back yard after 30 years of garbage and grass .
That summer Guns and Roses played the stadium we live close so I parked cars for the concert well my brother did now we only did about 4 cars . When we went out front to listen to the show some street rats looking for quick money filled up our yard it was too late by the time we noticed .
Another City of Edmonton peace officer comes onto the scene but he didn't catch anybody doing it so instead of a warning now keep in mind he thinks we're the same Natives that lived there cause we all look the same to him undoubtedly ( Racial Profiling ) so he fabricates a development permit violation calling a Guns and Yard sale sign I had put up to block one side of my yard to foot traffic and 6 2x4's I had screwed together to make an A frame for the electronics in our Guns and yard sale he called that a development gave us a 1000 dollar fine and then sent that to the landlord , Now that right there if anybody else would have been an eviction . However my landlord took pity cause he knows how many tickets that house got before and lets me pay it off over ten months . Which was just precious cause we we're also paying the damage off that way so the extra 200 a month out my life living below poverty was Delish . My Point this racist white cop used his ticket book to try and get me evicted so again they used his authority to expel his racist agenda . Second time I see it .
That was 2017 SO ever since then I DO NOT ride the LRT. I Cut my grass and shovel walks not because I have civic pride . Because of FEAR that some racist POS will someday be having a bad day and subject my family to even more misery and payments simply because he can . It wears a man down so when he has to relive his 60's scoop memories because the federal gov flashed some coin at me then watch them red tape that into a nightmare of bad information and just bad timing for covid I had pretty much lost my respect for govt sort of I still was a liberal but the cracks of knowing what was taken from me my language my heritage it was starting to be heavy . After I read the MMIW report any respect I had for white society was GONE. I was just a false Liberal now . Recently I tried to get my treaty status along with the sixties scoop settlement because I WAS STOLEN from my mother at age 2 spoke Cree and small English . She got me back 2 years later and it was gone . I didn't know who she was . My first memory of my Mother is her crying very hard . She never spoke CREE again in front of us and never taught it to me . Heritage lost in one brutal scoop . Again more red tape and bad timing is keeping my heritage away from me I require one more document to fulfill my applications but it will put people in danger . The federal Govt putting a timeline to end all applications during a pandemic is also pretty bad so ya see after all of that do you still think First Nations get treated fairly .
I have every right to hate you all into your graves but I don't YOU didn't do anything to me just some of your people are just DINKS most of you are pretty nice . After what I have seen and witnessed I no longer care to find out if it is in you to be good . That's the biggest loss of all for me I have to look at the white man with crooked eyes for the rest of my life .
I may be WOKE but I'm not Happy and I used to be very happy DUMB but happy .
Matt McDavid
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